JennyDarling

Playing with colors all day long Sometimes I sing a happy song Some days I'm blue and others green Others I'm brown and really mean On warm days I'm pink and bubbly Some days I'm red And others purple and blue all at once On stormy days I can be black But most of all I'm a colored mess

I cannot scream, my lips are trembling Fuck you all You cannot see Just what exactly is happening to me It's not my parents It's not my fault They didn't numb me They just let it out The darkness inside me Is my own sin Don't you fucking dare Blame my kin I can't escape Even with your help My hell is hard And not their fault So let it seep beneath your veins And remember what I said when I'm laid in my grave You didn't help, you didn't try You just bought my plastic lies I'm not fine, I'm not well Everything is all just hell I'm clothed in darkness And the demons can tell I tremble as the blade touches my skin Fuck I

These secrets kept inside Keep me locked within my mind A thin veil covers my eyes And a smile oh so pretty is left on the outside I stopped checking for monsters long ago, once I found them in my head And with nowhere to go and nowhere to turn I can't help but let it burn My thoughts keep me caged With an oh so pretty smile left on the outside I seek comfort, the blade keeps me warm My desires long gone with the storm I can't escape my own damn hell And a smile oh so pretty is getting worn down The light is gone from my eyes A cold hand is all you'll feel My dear I cannot tell, how I feel is a secret and you must deal This

Let the soft caress of night brush you Bask in the glow of the winter moon Connect the dots with the stars And most of all, remember who you are

Tormented and captured inside So far gone that no one remebers What day it is or how to smile Confused and reckless, life still goes on Dead inside, yet trying to smile When will it ever be tomorrow? No one remembers what to do No one knows where to go Confused and reckless, life still goes on My hands hang limp, drenched with yesterday's blood How do I move on to tomorrow? Here alone in my sorrow No one remembers where I am No one remembers how I sound Confused and reckless, life still goes on My head hangs limp My body sags I guess I gave up looking for tomorrow No one knows who I was No one remembers who I am Yet still,